Infinite Limits

dream on

Once these plans turn completely to reality... edi good! These are actually MY sembreak plans.

1] learn how to cook-as in for real at ung walang nasusunog kahit na ang nananahimik na pot holder! and kasi lately, I've realized na hindi mo pedeng i-ulam sa kanin ang cakes, pastries and breads which I somehow know how to make.

2] bake, bake and bake more -kasi "practice makes perfect" di ba?

3] know the wheels - yes, I had my license last summer pa but I haven't tried to drive on the road so it's the perfect time.

4] photography- yep, this is my latest frustration. I just want to try my luck and skills (sana naman kahit konti meron) on the art na hindi kailangan ng pencil =)

5] cheng hua more- I feel that I'm losing the little Mandarin I've learned over the summer and since isa pa 'to sa mga life-long frustrations ko (again), I PLAN to learn more.

6] be organized- aayusin ko ung space ko sa dorm. mahirap mabuhay sa maliit na kwarto na lalong lumiliit dahil sa mga gamit na hindi ko naman kailangan... ung mga trip ko lang dalin with me kasi akala ko mamimiss ko sila.

7] magpaka-healthy- hindi ung kakain pa kasi I already have heaps but recently, my eyes are starting to sore often and since last two weeks before the sem ended, my back is always aching.

***** here are my plans. It HAS to return to reality before the new sem comes =) jiayou, jiayou!

one more thing: this is not part of my sem break plan pero kapag nagkita ulit kami ni ***tooooottt***, edi nagkita kami. period! haha XD

on beginnings

I was pondering on this thought last night that—

 

how do we get to know that something has started? Add to that what I’ve just read from Sparks saying “In life, there are seldom clear cut beginnings.” Very true indeed.. So more often, we realize what we have but rarely do we remember how it started.  So tell me, how we get to really know when matters, like friendship, have already sprung between people? Is it a life-given law that we just know when we find ourselves right down at the middle of things or worse when we already lost it?

9-30-08

this was done during one of those dull moments in my dorm and the internet connection was again pathetically out of my hands. just read on--

This day started with a recollection, whew! Well, it was lightly delivered anyway. Good topic besides, “how to pray”. So the usual confession and mass followed and all. Then, history quiz went pretty fine for me. Fine is a sense that I was able to write something though I know I didn’t study enough. I was in a total knockdown last night because of preparing for the BIG 4 combo test that day before. I was supposed to wake up by 11pm but woke up by 4am instead. Huh, of course, no option left for me but to rather have a speed-up study (as in ung parang cars sa need for speed na may nitrous!) Theo was next.. Class was just like having a dvd marathon. We watched the documentaries we had. Ours was about PMS witn Tiff’s act as a smash bomb. Haha.. Pity me, I didn’t get to see every group presentation and the surprise for Margarette.. I still had my P.E finals lined up for today as well. Sayang.

 

all-smiles :D

It was our last meeting for P.E, of course, that’s why it’s called “FINALS”. It went on good, as in real good. And it’s also great to see Cha and Lia again before everything comes to a complete end. I was dog-smiling during dancing. Heck, I can’t avoid it. You know the feeling when you’re so tensed that two things are most likely to happen to you. One, tremble and let your knees turn to jelly or two, dog-smile until you look like an exotic bull dog and no matter how much you try to get rid of it, you just can’t! Well, the second happened to me and gah, my cheeks hurt after. But it didn’t stop me from cam-whoring after class. So shoot, shoot and shoot was the only thing we did for the last 20 minutes. It was fun.. so much indeed! I’ll surely miss my p.e. classmates. No more Sunday practices, on-the-spot dance steps,  dog-smiles on practicals and eating pancakes with ham. awww.... :(

 

Tomorrow’s a no class day but unfortunately, I just can’t face my taptap the whole day. Exams are coming real soon so I must get back to the nerdy status for a while. I’ve got grades to catch up on.. (aim high!).. I wish.

to the intended

***this entry is something I wrote on one of those nights in my dorm when I felt that I really have to heed the blogging call. I just needed a time-out from c++ and blah blah blah.. just read on..***

The heck, really.. I’m supposed to do be doing  a computer program but I’m really in a nuts mood. Pathetic me. Why do I have to do this programming while in the first place, it’s hardly related to my major?! I’m trying but I tell you, there are people born with natural compilers.^^

 

By the way, I’m still thinking of my PF’s mood today. At first, he seemed to be fine during class. he was still able to crack jokes, though corny and as usual made fun of me. But seemed like something in the wind had gone through him and as if, a low spirit came upon him and he just started to be in a bad mood. Not that bad actually but more of being not really energized and his mind was somewhere but definitely not in class. I tried asking if there was something wrong with him, he said there is but I dare did not ask why. I mean, who am I to ask in the first place? It was my first time seeing him like this, his simply weird, odd, awkward and surreal.

 

Gtg now.. I have to go back to my duties. I just wanted to take time out and write. You see, I find my utopia in words. I may not be good in figures (drawings, I mean) but I can say I’m far better off in playing with words. I bet no one’s reading my entries. There are over a million blogs on the net. Who takes time to read mine, anyway? But dear PF, I do hope that you get to see this entry one day and realize how much I wanted to be a friend (a real, genuine, authentic one!) and  that I really do hate seeing people in bad mood swings. I know it’s unavoidable but I really try to make things seem lighter. Ask my friends for proof! Life’s too short to be preoccupied with worries all the time.

 

Keep smiling ^o^

 

---jem ruste 9-16-08 (wow, it's 16 today.. wee.. 4 months to go and I'll be officially.. old. gah!)

 

BTW, I haven’t even mentioned that my PF is also someone I wish would greet me on wo de shengri. ^___^  impossible, I know, but still, I wish, I wish to the spotlights above…

isa na akong binyagan

I know, the title is in Filipino and so this article must follow, but who cares anyway? It's my blog so ***alright, you know what follows*** Last night, Zhaira (my high school buddy turned college roommate) & I ate outside. Yes, indeed we're sick of the food our dorm has. It's always afritada, caldereta then sinigang na baboy (happens to be something I don't eat) and then back to afritada, caldereta and then the ulam cycle goes on. I know I should be thankful that I still got food to eat but you cannot avoid the fact the people seek variety! so back to the story, we went out for dinner, just somewhere near our dorm... then, viola! we had a sumptuous dinner but the next thing we knew, it was badly raining outside and the greater thing, we didn't have a brolli with us. But the greatest thing of all is... ta-da! we're living in one of the most easily flooded streets in Manila, Espana.. where rivers form in the blink of an eye (when it rains of course). So there, we were standing for more than an hour as if waiting for superman to bring us a brolli.. Luckily, someone came and we got to the dorm, safe but wet. But going back, we had to walk the river (haha)^^ which was starting to come out in the open, it was ankle-deep. For my almost 2 years in uste this was my first time walking in flood.. and so as they say, you formally become a Thomasian by two things, one is to pass through the Arch of the Centuries and two, to walk in the flood.. I have faced and conquered the two so I'm formally a Thomasian! ^o^

***right now, I'm still here stuck in the lib and my Calculus class with start in about. 5 minutes. ^o^

thoughts

Again, it's obvious that my blogs are turning into a Friday habit. I can't really do blogs with my taptap in Manila. Let's just say I'm pretty much preoccupied with my newfound Friendster equivalent, the UST E-leap. Gah, you wish!^^ Now, I really feel that I'll be sticking pins in my eyes in a few minutes. I haven't  got enough sleep last night because I, no, we were expecting a Stat quiz today with Ma'am DR's "bahala na" reply last Monday only to find out it was just a seatwork. Real exam's on Monday so I guess no effort would be put to waste.

Last night was also an intense night for me. Technology really has gone far beyond what we, people, really need (particularly those mobile phones) to a point that it could turn people to monsters in a matter of a split second. Yes, someone turned into a monster last night which, of course, really scared the freak out of me. But such is also the human complexity that today, every thing is back to normal as if no "Hulk-like" transformation happened last night.And the main reason for all of this: "misunderstanding"... next time, let people explain first. I know what I was doing so no roaring please.

A few hours ago, I was browsing through some galleries by artists and photographers (in particular) who are of the same age as me. As usual, it left me again in awe. How could there exist those people really gifted in art and leaving me with not a single percent. I'm really never gifted at drawing. I can't really draw anything sensible or at least, something that one can really know what it is at first glance. Pathetic me, I know. Recently, I've really started to appreciate photography, especially those with people who seem to be unaware of the fact that they got themselves a great portrait. I want to learn it myself.. The thing is, how? I dream of having an SLR cam, but why? the reasons I have now are really "unjustifiable" for the actions (naks, theo?!). Yes, there are really people born with the gift, but even without it, isn't passion for learning enough to make up for it?

Random anew

 This is another entry with random thoughts.

Prelims had just ended last Thursday. Finally, I get to catch up with all those lost doses and lost time for the weekly net times. Grades are to come this week.
In the Stat prelims, I almost didn't follow directions until I was about to pass my paper. take note, was about so I rushed to my table and luckily, I got a correction pen.. (no need to disturb other who were in the heights of their thinking!) and what other weird things happened? ah, we almost thought (oh no, assumed.. just assumed)  that our Spanish prelims was cancelled Unfortunately, we found out that it was just moved to another room/lab =(. haha Comp Lec was not as hand-traumatizing as expected. =)

No P.e. class. yay!

I asked Sol for a red, unusual, girly sling bag.. --> not an easter egg, dear. haha. She even said that herself.

Class picture-taking was cancelled last Thursday. boo! but we had our own group photo shoot, yay!

I went out on a date with Erika =). We were planned to see "sassy girl" but SM was one, big dork and changed it to wall.e. So we just spent, 2 hours on 2 arcades and a superb lunch. not bad.

I got a 4-day break this week, no Friday exam+weekend+a national holiday on Monday.

I'm starting to like (and appreciate) photography more than any other art.

One day, I want to have my own SLR cam. =)

Co-quote-ish

I just felt that I had to put this down here. These are really some of the most sensible things I've heard (and read) for the past 17 years from family, friends, people I've met and books I've read"

"What you don't know wont hurt at all"-Mommy

"The hell they care!"-e.r

"And so? basta maganda tayo at un na un!"-reika

"Ano ka ba? Paranoid ka na!"- Anna and Zhai (thanks guys, if not for you, I wouldn't have realized.. salamat hanggang ngayon, loka loka pa din ako!)

"Ayokong iiyakan mo mga secretary's reports noh" --> I never did!

"Ships are safe in the port, but ships are never made for the port" -erbee (PIPAY!)

"Opportunities knock only once. You never know, you might regret this all your life"-Ms. Manlapas

"Do what is true, good and beautiful"-Ms. Santos

"Nothing's hard, just CHALLENGING"- T. Irish

"Never FLUCTUATE and dare not practice INCONSISTENCY" (on SC tasks).-Ms. Manlapas (again)

"Do your best to understand people. Lahat ng tao may kanya-kanyang topak!"

"Taming"- the Little Prince

"Push you limits" -bea

"Walang madali sa uste!" -kuya kiko

"COURAGE IS NOT THE ABSENCE OF FEAR, IT IS DOING WHAT YOU ARE AFRAID OF"- S. Rolly

...and the list goes on

***bottomline: I have realized that it doesn't really matter how many quotes you pick along life's long way. Yes, surely there are sensible things that you may hear and make a mark in you and somehow helps you choose on which decisions to make but in the end, it will still be MY quote for MY life lived MY way.

Jiayou to life! ^o^

1-2-3, revive

It's been 13 long weeks since I last posted an entry either here or in my multiply and unfortunately, the last one was not a good one. I've always wanted to add an entry here but I guess it's the time and the pathetic internet connection at the dorm that forbids me to, but here I am now,  writing while sleepy.

A lot has happened since school started. But all I can vividly remember are the happenings this week. So, I'll try to have a rundown.

Sunday- went to Manila by 6am for a social dance practice scheduled at 8 but started at 9:30, practice again by 10 with other groupmates then spent the rest of the day for an anticipated (you wish!) Comp lec quiz.

Monday- NO CLASSES. "Stock knowledge will soon have its worth"

Tuesday- Phil hist & theo quizzes plus a supposed to be a P.E. practical that was cancelled ^o^
                - WEIRD DAY--> when weird things happened including turning myself to a stupid dork in front of a      prof. Duh, who would believe it was just a reflex?!

Wednesday- No English so I got a 9-1 break then a 1-3 class.

Thursday- Comp lab prelims. Grace in disguise I saw my score and initially got a 30/50 with my program which left me in great doubt. My high school inquisitive habit returned and asked "why".. then, only to find out it was just a typo error (okay, so I got a 50). haha then CLASSES WERE SUSPENDED because of the dean's birthday.

Friday- regular classes. I went home to Bulacan but wasn't able to catch ISWAK =(. I saw the works he had posted and left me hands-down. He's a real good artist with a God-given talent! Living up his dream. I never thought that he is just so artistic. Thanks also to him for those words which made me revive my dear blog.

This was how my week came by. Of course, it wasn't every bit of it but enough to say "ANOTHER WEEK, DONE!" :)

to you, thanks for taking time^^

Horrible april 30th

indeed it was!

we had an accident last night sa nlex. no one's hurt but the thing itself was so traumatic.